what was you said?

A guy name charles(real name) call me “stupid” (In bahasa whis is really rude!) I mean seriously that would be OK if:
1. I’m stupid
2. I made a terrible mistake
3. He’s better than me

But that would be wrong if:
1. That person is a horny bastard with a brain as big as walnut.(Well actually IF he has any)
2. Public enemy with IQ below idiot rate
3. King Moron that almost lost his job cause he’s a complete useless individual that’s not achieving his target and like to blame other people for the sake of his fat stinky ass

I swear he should be jailed for being such a horrible person!

Watch your mouth you freak!

envy…

some girls are born so pretty they glow, some of them are plain boring and the rest are invisible!

and this is true! 

 

if you think i said it because i’m jealous… you right!

01062009

9.00PM closing and checking all the doors and preparing to sleep
10.00PM awake!
10.46PM still..
11.00PM counting sheeps..
12.09PM …
12.11PM …
12.14PM …
2.06AM and I’m not sleepy! At all.. I do feel tired but I don’t feel like closing my eye!

Ugh… I really need to sleep!I need to wake up at six and be ready for 9 o’clock meeting! I mean seriously!what an assholes! Its so early!

I haven’t prepared anything and I don’t even know what to prepare..ugh.. I wish my boss would not be so stupid like usual, I wish she would at least use her brain and stop asking stupid questions and repeat the same questions over and over again!! I mean WE GET IT! WE KNOW YOURE STUPID!

I wish she ate too much breakfast and have digestion problem and need to be hospitalized forever..or they found a new species on her gigantic hair and decide that she need to be quarantine for the rest of her life!

Ughhhh!

2.12AM decide to exercise

2.13AM decide not to exercise (I need to save my energy)

2.16AM I wish I know how to hypnotise my self!

Aaaaarrrggghhhhhhhhh….

Birthday list!

Way past my birthday but I feel like I need to make a “not to do list”..as this year I promised nothing but goodness..I know mother theresa is smiling upon me from heaven at this moment!

One:I should not spend more than I actually earn and use up all my credit cards to the limit! Forget all the new shoes, bags, cloths and start living in a time where credit card is just a myth!

Two: stop being a weight conscious bitch who need to do diet all the time! Though I desperately need one..(Suck it up randu you have big bones,blame the dinosaurs for inherit you this!)

Three: writing this journal everyday as I feel like I’m getting more and more aggressive lately…I don’t know is it hormones?

Four: get a new job by actually send at least a resume!not just wish a new job will fall from the sky out of nowhere!

Five: stop cursing,be more patient and positive!(This should be very easy, I can feel the positive aura inside me needs to be freed, I just need to suppress my killing tendencies and all should be OK)

Six: look for a nice guy and have a sexy-full of comitment-more than 3 months relationship!you can do it!

Seven: pray more..(I need this!!!maybe it’ll calm me down a bit)

Eight: stop eating carbs, meats, sweets, gravies, basically stop eating anything and starve yourselves to thin!(if oprah can you can!)

Nine: buy one of self improvement book and read it!(Target: get my name on one forbes list!)

Ten: be more feminine(Guy dig this,remember they like gabrielle not xena)

Eleven; stop drinking! Start sit up!

Twelve: stop making excuses for anything! Especially on why I need to snacking at midnight or skipping yoga classes for “mall” classes!

Thirteen: use more moisturizer!

Fourteen: saving money!! (This should be priority)

Fifteen: be a humanitarian, enroll on miss universe pageant and create a better world (target:world peace and touch trump’s wig)

To Kill a Sissy boy

Oh how I hate straight guy with such a mellow attitude..sooo sensitive! Come on man!you got balls show it! I mean seriously I have gay friend that 1 million times more manly than you (please,no offense)
Stop talking with such a sissy voice!WTF!gosh how I wish I can just pick a fight just to check the level of his “whimp-ness” blaaarrrgghhh
Fak!you know, it feels like you got some itchy feeling but you don’t know where the source of that evil!annoyiiinnnggg!!I wanna slap him!
Ohhhhmmmm I need to be patient!
Hand and feet be patient now..don’t kill him, not yet…ohhhhmmmm

Ps: don’t get me wrong I think its kinda tragic that the title of this post taken from my fave book…:(but its just I can’t think of anything else right now..the word kill are all over my head!

HUMOR???!?

What she said:

Choleric,
The answer to your troubles today is to take things much less seriously! Have a look into your heart and ask yourself where your sense of humor went. You may find it really hasn’t gone that far. If you need help getting started today, give yourself some prayer or meditation time.

What I said:
O holy Taurus Horoscope Reader.. I did take thing less seriously today but i end up getting a warning letter from my boss,is it playing game at the meeting room was not “less serious” enough?
I took i really far journey deep in to my heart but i didnot found anything but a big hole in my chest, lots of blood, piece of meat and serious stain on my new white shirt. i do hear a wondrous serene sound, is it the sound of heaven’s bell? when i woke up i was in the white room with some female angels with hairnets and some bold male angels with some weird smirks on his old face .. and he was touching me in inappropriate places? is that heaven? it was nice experience though… I kinda relive knowing they had cable and wrestling channel there..

but off course you can you also read that on your holy cards?……….o holy reader?

where did it go?
where all the jokes i need?
is it really not that far?
BUT WHERE?………hmm wait! humor? oh you mean my low paid job?
or is it my life? hmm… is it being pathetic funny? or my weight? is it the kind of humor you meant? … surely they’re STILL here! even if i want them to leave THEY ARE STILL HERE…  well, its not that i hate my life or something but i’m mere human with a little hating problem. 

O holy taurus card reader, as you probably know, i have a weak guts and hearts so kindly tell me if something bad is going to happen so i can prepared my self … thanks

recondition!

Do list:
1. buy a gun
2. hire a fucking brilliant attorney
3. create an ass kicking hatred letter
4. breath!!!

Man!what a crazy world were live in….
it feels like someone has been beating the crap out of you but you cant do anything!!
i got myself a new phone after so long. Went to this store and they offered me a nice phone with cheaper price… they were very kind too so i thought hey maybe that was part of the service.
But the next day after checked by handset department at my office, they said it’s a recondition phone! which is a mix of several used phones parts that being reproduce by themselves into a “new one” then they resell it again with new price!! basically they’re faking it so they’ll get more money out of it!

FUCK!!

i mean seriously how could they do that??
they said it happen a lot lately cause the parts are getting cheaper,while the phones are getting more and more expensive.
As phone become a primary needs bad people are playing their trick to mislead other people…..that’s really mean!! and unacceptable!!!
tomorrow i planned to go to that shop and reclaim my money!!
hallelujah for working in a provider so i have tons of people who can help…..
i’m gonna chop their head off!!!!

plurk = love

These last few days been tough but thank goodness for the supports given by my plurk fellows,I feel ssoooo much better!
Who would’ve thought people whom I’ve never met face to face could give supports more than people around me?
I guess its mainly because when io feel so upset with the situation and I really need to share it but too upset to talk about it verbally..the other is simply because we communicate every day and these people has become more than just a chat-friend but has become part of my life .. A one big plurk family!
I love plurk and I love these people!!!
thank you for makin my life more colorfull!
Thank you for sharring your stories and moments with me..
Thank you for those lovely and funny replies..
Thank you for always be there to support me..
But most of all thank you for letting me be part of this beautiful friendship!
I laaavv you aalllllll!!
And I mean it!

Ps:I swear I’m tellin you the truth and no pet or human harmed during this painful process.
Ohh and I really wrote this,NO CHEAT!

never been good enough

Today I learn something precious!I’ve been hearing this hundred times from so many source “never put all your eggs on one bucket (thanks to WT)” this is sooooo TRUE!! never as if NEVER ever ever ever put so many hopes and thrusts in only one person.
Why? (why you have to know everything?)

Well here’s the thing; that one person you relied on,has one person he/she should take care more than anyone else which is HIS/HERself!AND U WILL NEVER WIN AGAINST THEM!they are like the soul hitler a.k.a supreme ruler of one soul!
Here’ s why I said so,
I text my boss to tell him that I’m sick today,I knew there’s something wrong when he forced me to come.

honestly I really like him!I belive in him!I do!but he betrayed me!

The thing is we actually have one common,we hate this devilish fat-tummy bitch with extra poisonous ridiculous hair which is our direct report!

(I’ll tell ya she’s the kind of woman who locked you in the locker room and burn all your cloth, the kind of women that you give your seat in the crowded bus but don’t say thank you,the kind of woman who smile when you lost your pet and the list will goes on and on,YES that kind of woman )

The point is WE HATE HER! My boss and I,we want to runaway from her, WE as if TWO PEOPLE but you know what happen? that assholes left me. HE MOVED!without telling me..still at the same division but different boss!he ditched me!dumped me as if I’m nothing!that piece of shit!

WITHOUT TELLIN ME ANYTHING!WTF!I should have plucked his balls, chopped it and feed it to sharks for being such a wimp!uggghhhh….

After that spectaculer announcement he and his shinning new team gather in his desk WHICH HAPPEN TO BE NEXT TO MINE, discussed tons of plans and exitements!without kindly enough to tell me anything!

it break my heart!really!I worked so hard and performed well!
Well it seems not good enough!though i tried so hard nothin will ever be good enough…I deserve soooooo much more than this!OH HOW I DESPERATELY NEED A NEW JOB!and a new matcing shoe of course…

well….life goes on I think I’ll just have to take it one at a time…

…………..and take his life at another time (ahahahah kiddin)

POSITIVE POSITIVE POSITIVE

i planned to be the most positive person today… with the power trust in me by the force,i’ll try with all my power to achieve it!

morning:
It was raining this morning and this brown SUV accidentally splashed lots of water to my white pant, BUT ITS OK!even i’ll look like a completely utter crap for the rest of the day thanks to his impeccable driving skill, ITS OK!i sincerely hope he’ll get a not so horrible accident and live happily ever after with his one leg…OHHHMMMMM…..

afternoon:
Yay! I got migraine! and guess what?it hurt like hell!
I think it paralyzed half of my brain coz i cant think of anything at that point!!HOORAIY!oooo happy day…

Evening:
yay 30 minutes to freedom, i’m still stuck at a delightful meeting with legal team, who btw keep speaking in martian language, there’s only 124 email to read and reply!and i think i just missed an important meeting with management. wow what a brilliant day it is!

15 minutes to freedom, still at the meeting and surprisingly still breathing!
10 minutes … still here
7 minutes……. still……….
3 minutes……………….. *mayday mayday… heeeeeelllllppp*
1 minutes……….glad i still can keep my black berry ON
minus 3 minutes …. MY GOD this alienated freaks! why are they still chatting happily???
minus 15 minutes…. just want to tell ya I’M STILL HERE!!!

HOLY CRAP WITH EXTRA TOMATO SAUCE! WHAT WITH THESE PEOPLE? MINUS 2 HOURS AND I’M STILL AT THIS DAMN PLACE… TRYING TO COPE WITH LAST PIECES OF POSITIVE THOUGHT I HAVE!!
GOD!!UGH DONT MAKE ME BLOW THIS PLACE UPPP!!
WHERE THE HELL IS EMERGENCY CALL WHEN I NEED THEM??!
AND I CANT EVEN PLURK!!!!
WHAT A HAPPY DAY! OHHMMMMM……..

Wow i think this yoga methods works!i’m sooo positive!